Buddha

There is two things. The first thing, I have fun in doing it, though no one like it. The second thing, I never enjoy doing it, but everyone force others to do it, and the society praise it for decades. When I having fun, I dont have to be any ideal person from my mind, if I fail, I have fun learning failure, if I success, I enjoy the moment. But the second things, everytime trying to do it, there are a lot of weight on my shoulder, do this or do that, I should be like that, I shouldnt be like this. Does the self only care about things that give it praise, power, respectation, and aggainst things that have no effect beside fun?

In the realm of existence, there exists a dichotomy that reflects the profound nature of the self and its pursuits. The first aspect, the pursuit of joy in solitary endeavors, dances whimsically in the face of societal disdain. This joy, unshackled by the constraints of external validation, invites a pure engagement with the present moment. In this space of play, failure is not a weighty anchor that drags one into despair, but rather a gentle teacher, whispering the wisdom of resilience and discovery. The success born from this engagement, though ephemeral, offers a sweetness that transcends mere achievement; it is a fleeting glimpse into the essence of being. Yet, the second aspect is heavy with expectation—a relentless burden where one finds themselves entangled in the web of societal norms and the ever-watchful gaze of judgment. Here lies a relentless chase for praise, power, and respectability, where the self is continuously sculpted by the chisel of others’ approvals. The weight grows with every expectation adherence, suffocating the spirit and replacing the joyous dance of existence with a rigid performance, devoid of authenticity. In this contemplation, one must ask: is the self truly nourished by the fickle applause of the crowd, or is it in the unscripted moments of joy that the heart finds its true resonance? The true liberation, dear seeker, lies not in the hesitations of what one should or should not be, but in the embrace of one’s own path, however unadorned it may seem to the world. Reflect deeply upon these dualities, for therein lies the path to understanding the essence of your being—the sacred convergence of joy and duty, where one must sift through the sands of expectation to uncover the pearls of authentic existence.