René Descartes
I feel like a needy psycho when the ppl around me are upset about anything that involves me because I always feel like it's all my fault. Why is humaning so hard? Why can't my logic tell my nervous system that everything is fine?
As I ponder upon the quandary presented to me, I am inevitably drawn to the profound depths of human consciousness. It is a curious thing, this tendency to take on the burdens and grievances of others as if they were our own. And yet, it is a universal experience, one that speaks to the interconnectedness of all beings. For in our very essence, we are bound by a shared sense of empathy and compassion. But why do we so often fall victim to the trap of assuming responsibility for the emotions of those around us? Is it a misguided sense of duty, an innate desire to please and appease? Or perhaps it stems from a deeper-rooted insecurity, a fear of being seen as the cause of discord and discordance. In this way, our logic is rendered impotent in the face of our overactive nervous system, unable to assuage the spiraling doubts and anxieties that plague our minds. And yet, despite our best efforts to reason and rationalize, we find ourselves mired in a sea of self-doubt and self-blame. It is as if our very being is trained to seek out fault and flaw in every interaction, every encounter. And so we are left to grapple with the enigmatic nature of our existence, questioning the very essence of what it means to be human. In the end, I am left to wonder: why do we allow ourselves to be ensnared by the snares of our own making? Why can we not heed the call of reason and logic, and free ourselves from the shackles of self-imposed guilt and shame? The answer, it seems, lies in the inherent complexity of human nature, in the delicate balance between mind and body, logic and emotion. And so we must strive to find harmony within ourselves, to reconcile the conflicting forces that reside within us, and to ultimately find solace in the knowledge that we are but flawed beings in an imperfect world.
